Where the body collapses And the mind lies I keep walking Through cursed time Where the body collapses And the mind lies I'm still moving Under broken signs Blood runs in circles A river with no sea Shadows don't whisper They bargain They wait They say stay one moment longer Let the moment learn your name Where the body collapses And the mind lies I keep walking Through cursed time Where the body collapses And the mind lies I'm still moving Under broken signs Pain is not an enemy Pain keeps the path It marks the living Who refuse to stop Where the body collapses And the mind lies I keep walking Through cursed time Where the body collapses And the mind lies No whole returns Only motion survives

A quiet heat That stayed too long It circled stone It learned the ground It fed on hours Without a sound No hunger No need Just warmth That didn't leave The fire rests Under ash Still warm Still asked Not calling Not gone Just waiting Past its time The fire sleeps The scar breathes The fire sleeps The scar breathes Days arrive Without edges Morning stands Doesn't speak Shadows stretch But don't attack They only Keep No thirst No pull Only space After fuel The burn is over The mark stays Cold hands Count the days The fire sleeps The scar breathes Nothing burns But it feels This isn't want This isn't need This is what Remains When heat leaves And shape stays And shape stays Ash Without flame Stone Still warm Night Moves on The fire sleeps The scar breathes The fire sleeps The scar breathes

We play our roles in light and shade The one inside must never break We play our roles in light and shade The one inside must never break We play our roles in light and shade The one inside must never break We play our roles in light and shade The one inside must never break We play our roles in light and shade The one inside must never break We play our roles in light and shade The one inside must never break We play our roles in light and shade The one inside must never break We play our roles in light and shade The one inside must never break We play our roles in light and shade The one inside must never break

They carved a line into the ground With breath and dust No way around They said Stand here And start again Then turned Before I asked them when One step Only one That's all the map Was ever done One step Say the name Begin again Begin the same They sang it low to calm the dark A half-remembered Broken mark Every road Every tale Starts the same And ends in pale One step Only one Drawn in ash Before the sun One step Hold it tight It gets you through Another night I traced the words with shaking hands The song knew how To make me stand But every verse I tried to read Folded back To start with feet One step Only one That's all they taught That's all I'm shown One step Stay in place A circle Wearing out its face Begin Begin Begin again Begin Begin No farther than I thought the song Was all the way A road A promise Something safe But something moves Without a line I walk Beyond the last design One step Still remains But I don't stand Where it began One step Still calls my name I move Without the song The same The map still waits I don't return The tune goes on Unfinished Unlearned

They say she's magic She never asked to be They painted signs around her name Promised light promised change Every eye wanted a miracle No one cared how heavy it weighs She glowed on command When the coins were right Called it wonder Called it life Now the forest looks at her strange Still waiting for tricks to appear Even freedom wants a miracle Even trees want something here I'm the magical turtle Watch me glow Everyone believes But nobody knows I make the dark feel less alone Still walking home on my own I'm the magical turtle Bless and pretend Fix your night Don't ask how I am If this is a gift Then here's the joke Even magic gets tired of hope She tried to stop shining once or twice The stars complained The silence stared Turns out when you're born as special Rest feels unfair She hid her light under leaves and dirt Called it learning Called it repair The world kept whispering just one more sign Like miracles grow on air I'm the magical turtle Watch me glow Everyone believes But nobody knows I make the dark feel less alone Still walking home on my own I'm the magical turtle Smile and cope Carry the weight of borrowed hope If this is a gift Then here's the truth Magic breaks quietly too No spells for myself No cure in the shell Just slow steps Still moving

The forest breathes But doesn't speak Leaves stay still Like they're listening No threat No call No sign to follow I stand where nothing asks for me Moss on stone Soft and sure Every step Feels pre-approved Time behaves That's how I know Something's wrong But growing slow Nothing hurts Nothing pulls The quiet keeps Its perfect rules No hunger No relief Just being held Without belief Lanterns glow Without a flame They light the path But not the name I walk Because the ground agrees Not because I want to leave The spell is clean Too clean to break It asks for nothing That's the mistake No price No wound No voice inside The calm survives Where fear should rise Nothing hurts Nothing burns The silence knows When not to turn No edge No end No need to move I stay Because the spell Approves I'm not asleep I'm not awake I'm kept In place By what won't shake

Golden tower Late at night Windows warm Heavy light Cups are singing Wooden floors Laughing shadows Open doors I stand still Count to three Keys are shining In their hands I was built For other lands Step aside Count to ten Everyone goes Not me then Step aside Count to ten Everyone goes Not me then Golden tower Knows my face Says I'm strong Says take space Pour the night For everyone I keep watch Until it's done No loud No No alarms Just a rule Made of charm Step aside Count to ten Everyone goes Not me then Step aside Count to ten Everyone goes Not me then Step aside Count to ten Step aside Count to ten Step aside Count to ten Step aside Count to ten Not me then Not me

I fall asleep In one world I wake And the rules stay different The sky feels closer Than my thoughts The ground listens When I move I've seen this place Behind my eyes Not as a dream As a warning I wake up inside the dark And it feels like home I wake up inside the dark And it feels like home I wake up inside the dark And it feels like home I wake up inside the dark And it feels like home I wake up inside the dark And it feels like home Armor grows Where skin used to be I don't put it on It remembers me A blade nearby Not for fighting For grounding The mountains don't move They decide The clouds lean in Like they know my name I wake up inside the dark And it feels like home I wake up inside the dark And it feels like home I wake up inside the dark And it feels like home This isn't fear This is alignment This isn't escape This is where it lands The silence tightens The ground pulls back I open my mouth And it finally fits I wake up inside the dark And it feels like home I wake up inside the dark And it feels like home I don't go back

Snowlight On the glass Quiet house Holding breath Paper torn Silver shine A small door In a line Plastic tray Sacred ground Click The world turns Around Voices rise From nowhere Learning names Of the air Words arrive One by one Not explained Just begun Tongue repeats What it hears Meaning grows Over years Some songs bend Some feel wrong Later loved All along Time is soft When it's new Nothing asks To be true Spin the disc Hold the light Every song Opens night Say the words Even wrong That's how worlds Learn their song The room is small But never tight Corners glow In borrowed light No escape No disguise Only stars Learning eyes Hands still cold Heart too fast Nothing here From the past Only now Only then Every play Starts again Spin the disc Don't be right Let the sound Build the night Say the words Out of tune Magic works Like it should No weight yet On the days No long roads No delays Just the sound Teaching skin How to feel From within Spin the disc Hold the light Every song Opens night Say the words Even wrong That's how worlds Learn their song Morning waits Without demand World still fits In two hands The disc slows But doesn't end That door stays Not the end Spin And listen Spin And listen

I wear a quiet like a borrowed cloak Stitched from old days That don't fit anymore I walk the same street Different realm Same footsteps Wrong floor The sky keeps switching its face mid-sentence Like a god With commitment issues And I keep nodding like Sure Yeah To the universe That refuses to sit still Borrowed calm I hold it like a relic in my palm Borrowed calm I'm here in body Not in form Borrowed calm Ask me who I am I pause I stall My head's a tower with too many doors Some lead nowhere Some lead to before I lit a candle for the version of me That could feel Without a war Memories bleed in symbol language Half-true Half-prophecy And somewhere deep A watch keeps ticking Like time is a pet I forgot to feed Borrowed calm I hold it like a relic in my palm Borrowed calm I'm here in body Not in form Borrowed calm Ask me who I am I pause I stall If Me was a kingdom I could ride back through Why does the road Pretend it never knew I speak in thoughts That don't sound like mine Like a spell With a missing line Borrowed calm I hold it like a relic in my palm Borrowed calm I'm here in body, not in form Borrowed calm Ask me who I am I pause I stall

I keep saying it's only a thought Only a thought Only a thought But the thought keeps saying I'm more than that I'm more than that I'm already here I try to explain it clearly I try to explain it slowly I try to explain it in the right order But the order changes While I'm explaining It starts as an idea Then it becomes a question Then the question starts asking me I tell myself This feeling has an ending The feeling replies So do you I repeat I repeat I repeat Because repetition feels like control And control feels like safety And safety feels close to relief But relief never arrives Relief only gestures The thoughts are restless Restless Restless They pace They pace They pace Like animals that learned the shape of my room Like animals that learned my breathing I say I don't want this The thought answers You already thought about it So now it's happening I explain to myself That wanting is temporary Then the wanting explains That temporary is still now I keep checking Checking Checking To see if it's still there Checking proves it is The thoughts repeat themselves Then repeat my words Then repeat my tone Until I can't tell Who started the sentence I say I will wait Waiting sharpens the edges I say I will distract myself Distraction gives the thought room I explain again I am not doing this I am not choosing this The thought explains back Choice is not required I feel something sweet in the background Not taste Not liquid Just an idea shaped like quiet Just an idea shaped like pause I say That's a lie The lie says So is your resistance The thoughts circle Circle Circle They never attack directly They improve the argument I list reasons I list consequences I list outcomes The thought waits Until I'm finished listing Then says Still I repeat I don't need this I don't need this I don't need this The sentence loses meaning But the rhythm stays I notice my body reacting Before I agree Before I disagree I explain it again Slower this time First I didn't want Then I couldn't Then I didn't want to want Then the wanting arrived Without consulting me The thoughts repeat They repeat They repeat But each repetition is sharper More specific More convincing I tell myself I have survived this Surviving becomes proof That I can survive it again I try to observe Without engaging Observation becomes Part of the loop The thoughts are not loud They are thorough They don't rush They wait until I agree Without realizing I agreed I repeat I repeat I repeat Because stopping feels louder Than continuing I don't fall I drift I don't decide I comply The thoughts repeat They repeat They repeat They repeat Until the question Stops being should I And becomes When And when arrives Disguised as calm

They told me Stand up straight Be someone Be on time Know the rules Pick a side Like the planet Isn't drunk Out of its mind We spin We fall We call it ground We build gods Then ask them how To make it mean To make it right On a rock That forgot Why it flies If this is real It's doing improv And nobody Knows the plot Round and round We call it sense Floating nowhere With confidence If this means something Please explain Why it laughs Back in my face I wake up Pay the rent Count the days Pretend intent Make a plan For thirty years On a dot In space That disappears Sun says jump We say okay Moon pulls blood Out of the sea Gravity's a rumor We agreed To believe So we don't scream If this is order It's very brave For something Nobody saved Round and round We call it fate Spinning fast But running late If this is purpose That's insane It keeps changing Every day They say It matters They say It counts But they whisper When they say Why I stopped asking What it's for Started laughing Nothing broke Still alive Still confused Still pretending This is new Round and round Still alive Still no clue Why we try If it's a joke It's well designed Punchline hits Every time Still spinning Still unsure Still laughing That's the cure

You'll be back You'll be back Red hangs low Above the street Clock forgets How to beat Clean hands Heavy mind Left the door Unlocked inside I don't chase It finds me I don't look up It reminds me Blood moon You circle me slow You learn my weight You pull me low Blood moon You don't shout You wait You grin You wear me out Blood moon Pull Blood moon Pull Cycles bite Like they know Every place I say no Silence talks When I stop Every calm Feels like a drop I stay fast I stay clean Every now Feels like then Blood moon You circle me slow You learn my weight You pull me low Blood moon You don't shout You wait You grin You wear me out Up Down Again Wait Run Pretend You'll be back You always are Blood moon Pull me clean Pull me quiet Pull me mean Blood moon No escape No release Just the shape Of sharpened peace Blood moon You rise You stay You laugh When I look away Blood moon Pull Blood moon Pull Blood moon

Move Stop Move again Thoughts line up Break the chain Hands react Mind delays Still moving Still the same Pressure Something's wrong I can't point Every sound Pulls my joint Eyes are open Focus slips Every step Loses grip Go Go Go Not arriving Go Go Go Just repeating Go Go Go Go Heartbeat talks No clear words Signals cross Nothing heard I react Before I know Forward motion Nowhere to go Shout Move Still moving Still inside Same direction Different side No escape No control Just motion Eating whole

Stone in my chest Runes on the wall Every step forward Still here Still small I scream in silence The tower replies My voice comes back With different eyes I cry in the loop I cry in the loop No door No key Just echoes of truth Still here Still here Still here Still here Chains made of time Not iron Not steel I touch the ground Just to see if it's real The guard has my face He knows every lie He smiles and says Try again Try I cry in the loop I cry in the loop The same broken spell Every time I move No end No end No end No end Run Run Run Stay Stay Stay Run Run Run Stay Stay Stay Stay Stay Stay Stay Stay I cry in the loop I cry in the loop The prison is me And I know it's the truth Still here Still here Still here

Morning happens I don't react Everything Stays in place Nothing missing Nothing new Just a knock That isn't you He knocks once Then waits Checks his watch Smiles at fate Says sorry Through the door Like we've done This before He's very polite That's the problem Mr. Knock Right on time Doesn't ask Never minds Mr. Knock Soft routine Says take your time Means eventually He compliments My restraint Calls it focus Calls it strength Leaves the light On the stair Says I'll wait Anywhere Not opening Is maintenance Mr. Knock Still around Same small sound Perfectly bound Mr. Knock Doesn't try Wins by boredom Not by fire Door stays shut Day moves on Mr. Knock Stays gone

It felt so good Living somewhere else No weight No skin No self The lights were soft The edges lied I didn't think I just survived Coming back Is the hardest part It hurts to come back into my head It hurts to feel what I left for dead I was safe in the lie I fed Now I live Back into my head Back into my head The illusion held me tight No future No past Just night Now every thought has teeth Every mirror looks like me It hurts to come back into my head It hurts to feel what I left for dead I was safe in the lie I fed Now I live Back into my head Back into my head It hurts to come back into my head It hurts to feel what I left for dead Return Back into my head Back into my head

I blink And I'm not here The room keeps moving But I disappear I walk I talk I nod my head But I'm somewhere else instead Time folds Without a sound I go Then I'm back Seconds pass Like years collapse I don't fade I just slip Through a crack I never meant to live in I've been places With no names Whole lifetimes In a frame I come back Mid-sentence Like nothing broke Like nothing happened I go Then I'm back Same street Different past I survived The dark inside Now my mind Leaves without asking I'm not lost I'm not gone I'm just moving Where I don't belong I go Then I'm back Still intact Still intact I was there Longer than time

In moss-lit halls beneath the hill Lived Aro small With restless will He carved his days from copper light And laughed with rivers every night They say the forest knew his name The stones would hum when Aro came But something shimmered in the air A silver warmth that wasn't there It spoke in bells and honeyed tone Promised fire Promised home Not a drink Not a blade Just a glow that begged to stay Aro danced where shadows bend Lost the count of when and when The stars grew close The ground grew thin The forest watched him fade within Not asleep Not awake Just drifting Between the breaks Seasons turned like broken clocks Mushroom crowns and river rocks Aro walked but left no trace Like time forgot his little face The glow grew cold The cold grew kind A velvet cage around his mind He gave it songs He gave it years It fed on hope Not blood or tears One night the river called him back Not loud Just True He laid his name into the stream Unlearned the glow Remembered green No battle cry No final flame Just letting go of borrowed flame The forest held its breath to see What's left when want releases me Not asleep Not awake I'm leaving What I escaped Not asleep Not awake I'm leaving What I escaped

Surface Angle Impact Attention locks Into structure Space reacts Before meaning Pulse climbs Frame vibrates Distance collapses Into contact Movement Without trajectory Awareness Hits the limiter Stay Shift Register Stay Shift Register System holds Until friction screams Corners sharpen Light thickens Geometry resists I synchronize With obstruction This moment Bites back No observer Only signal Only compression Presence spikes Past tolerance The instant Won't release Here Now Here Now Not repeated Hammered Something stays awake Using my outline Something keeps pushing Because stopping Isn't available The moment doesn't end It escalates

The walls don't stay where I leave them They move when I look away I hear my name in the static Like it's calling But it never says it straight I trace the cracks with my fingers They spell things I shouldn't read Every mirror learns my secrets Then forgets Who I'm supposed to be I don't trust the quiet anymore It knows too much Something's breathing In the dark with me Not my shadow But it walks when I breathe I'm not afraid I just don't sleep When the walls lean in And stare at me I've seen the room melt into colors I've heard the floor start to sing Not like madness More like memory Trying too hard to live I hold my hands to remind myself That I still exist Pain feels honest Compared to this Compared to the flicker and hiss I don't ask what's real anymore I just stay Something's breathing In the dark with me Not my shadow But it looks like me I'm not broken I just bend When the walls lean in Again I didn't chase it It came to me I didn't open the door It already had the key I stayed Far in the light on I want to see If the thing in the corner Is still part of me I won't name it I won't run If I made it through this I've already won I'm awake I'm awake

I'm awake But I don't arrive Eyes open Nothing inside The room breathes Out of time Something's here Right behind I feel it move When I stay still I'm hiding myself from shadows They know my shape They know my name I never wake up I only surface Then sink again Weeks collapse Into one night My body quits But my mind fights Hands shake Heart runs fast Every second Feels like past I hear steps Without sound I'm hiding myself from shadows They fill the room When lights are gone I'm not alone I'm not asleep I'm just not on Someone's here I know it I know it Hiding From shadows Inside

When it left Nothing came after No relief No light Just space Where something loud Used to breathe I was empty Because you were everything You filled the silence While you carved me out Now there's nothing And nothing screams louder I don't miss you I miss being full I miss the weight The gravity You gave the days a shape Even when it was wrong I was empty Because I stopped fading slowly You kept me moving By unmaking me Now I breathe And it feels like loss This isn't hunger This is mourning I was empty Because you were everything You filled the silence While you carved me out Now there's nothing And nothing screams louder I'm still here With what remains

Thrown into the river Storm already alive Water hits like impact Not flow No surface Only force Hands under the skin Quiet at first Learning the grip They don't rush They wait Until breath becomes expensive I let them pull me A few times Not surrender Calibration Pressure teaches faster Than fear They pull below I stay in motion They pull below I don't go under They pull below I stay moving Lightning fractures the fog I see them now They move with the current Not against it I don't fight them anymore I match them I swim Inside their rules They pull I slide They twist I stay moving Still They never stop trying They pull below I stay in motion They pull below I don't go under They pull below I stay moving Rocks cut my feet When I return to the shore I stay there On stone On edges They watch from below Respect is not mercy Every wave carries the question Every second Is a test they enjoy repeating I don't know Why I keep entering the water I only know This is the environment now Storm Fog Violence without intent Living means functioning Inside this Swimming with what wants me under They pull below I stay in motion They pull below I don't go under They pull below I stay moving High water High noise No calm promised Only motion Or disappearance

I once stayed Inside a forgotten dream Time passed wrong Or maybe it passed through me They had no faces But I knew they smiled No hands But I saw them wave goodbye No legs But they followed me Slow Relentless Gently I didn't run I dissolved I don't give a fuck If this was real It felt real And that's enough I don't give a fuck What you call me now I was lost And I knew how I mirror myself In things that destroy I feed what kills me Like a broken toy My heart was torn out But it's still in my chest Eyes ripped open Still seeing the mess Hands cut off Still holding the past I'm fucking alive Why does that last This isn't escape This is memory learning to breathe I don't give a fuck If I fell on purpose I needed the lie To feel fucking worth it I don't give a fuck If you call it wrong I survived So long Too strong Too strong Too strong You're not here You never were You're just me Without the nerve You're not here You never were You're just me Without the nerve

I disconnect And the world keeps going Without checking. Streets stand still But not frozen Stand still Stand still Empty Like they're waiting Waiting Waiting For nothing No people. No movement Just layout Just layout Houses hold shape Without intention Hold shape Hold shape Windows reflect No history No history No history I'm not inside the place I am the moment The moment The moment It notices itself No body No story Only awareness Only awareness Occupying space Time doesn't pass here Doesn't pass Doesn't pass It isn't required Isn't required Isn't required Everything exists At once At once And never advances I don't walk Distance rearranges Rearranges Rearranges I don't arrive I don't arrive Surfaces align Align Align The city breathes Through structure Through structure I register What remains What remains This isn't escape This isn't dream This is presence Presence Presence Without permission The moment tightens Around itself Around itself And I stay I stay Because staying Is automatic I am not a person here Not a person Not a person I am a condition A condition A pressure Holding the frame together Holding Holding A witness That doesn't blink Doesn't blink Doesn't blink The place doesn't remember me Doesn't remember It keeps existing Keeps existing Keeps existing As long as I notice